When first confronted with awareness into my sinful nature, I lacked the level of discernment needed to grasp its weight.

The corruption within is not merely a moral failing nor a series of poor preferences; it is the State of Human Beings—a distortion of what we see in the mirror…

Face to face with the soul- you find a deformed reflection looking back at you. Something your waking mind never saw.

You are disobedient and rebellious, torn between your conflicting desires, double-minded in your ways.

2 Oppositional Forces

For me, one part yearned for deep and meaningful purpose, yet another aspect was incessantly seduced by chaos, easily bated by danger, pain, and fearful things.

I was repulsed by who I thought I was in comparison to this monstrosity. This was the truth. In that moment, every bit of evil’s horrific vices surfaced; I despised my compulsion toward gore, a freak for intensity.

I hated it. I loved it.

Many decades ago, when all of this happened, I had no relationship with God, the Creator of Spirit. I didn’t grasp what such a connection would involve.

The extremes I experienced transformed my perspective.

Looking back, I can clearly see that before my descent into the depths of Hell, I was being prepared for something Holy.

I need to be reassembled correctly, but first, we must disassemble.

Looking back, I can see.

I was primed for my humiliation ritual, a necessary step for someone with such inflated pride.

Transmutation is Suffering

Without pain there cannot be growth.

When suffering is truly understood, it can either transmute the soul from flesh to spirit or lead it toward total entropy as the body decays.

Give me anguish then..

Under the loudened silence and heavy weight of invisible sufferring, the lowness is trifling.

Key🔑

How to Transcend Suffering: A Step-by-Step Process

1. Step Back to Observe

Begin by positioning yourself at the periphery of your conscious awareness.

Detach slightly from your immediate thoughts and emotions, allowing you to observe your inner landscape without judgment.

2. Embrace the Essence:

Transition into a state of deep presence by surrendering to the very essence of existence. In this space, open your mind to the subtle resonances of Being Raptured—recognize that even your suffering carries an illuminating quality that elevates it from mere pain to profound transformation.

3. Reframe Negative Polarity:

Understand that the challenges you face, the Negative Polarity, serve a purposeful role. Rather than resisting these forces, see them as essential tools that refine your spirit and prepare you for the transformative Gift of Duality.

4. Acknowledge the Paradox:

Accept the inherent paradox in Duality. Realize that by embracing both light and darkness, the Soul comes to recognize that the physical form is not separate but merely a temporary expression. This awareness guides you toward the understanding that your body—and all forms—inevitably returns to its original source, marking the end of dualistic separation.

5. Internalize and Reflect:

Continually return to this process. Reflect on each step and integrate this awareness into your daily life. Over time, allow this practice to transform suffering into a catalyst for spiritual growth and enlightenment.

By following these steps, you actively engage in a process that not only alleviates suffering but also deepens your understanding of your self and the greater scheme of existence.

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