A reminder of what it took to pave the way out of the Papacys false Doctrine and Authoritarian Dictatorship; stealing God’s Glory; tiring the House of God into a den of robbers. Luther & the reformers died a martyrs death for God Alone, leading God’s flock away from the flesh.
All Glory belongs to God.
God wrote this on the Hearts of His chosen.
Does that seem unlikely for someone as sinful as you? To that i say; Even more the likelihood that you are one of the Elect.
He makes straight the crooked, heals the sick, comforts the broken… If you are well; you have no need to be healed. The more unlikely one seems to be among one of His “called”; the higher the chances that one who all doubt is actually the one who is called into Him by Him for Him.
“And you were dead in the trespasses and sins in which you once walked, following the course of this world, following the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that is now at work in the sons of disobedience— among whom we all once lived in the passions of our flesh, carrying out the desires of the body and the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, like the rest of mankind…”
– Ephesians 2:1-3
“And you, who were dead in your trespasses and the uncircumcision of your flesh, God made alive together with him, having forgiven us all our trespasses…”
– Colossians 2:13
The will of man is hostile to God; we want our desires met before the Lord’s desires, yet we claim to love Him. We don’t even know Who He is.
We Are Not Free-willed, But Our Will Is Bound To The Flesh
How can a spiritually dead person have a will to choose Spirit?
Man’s will cannot submit to God’s Law, as we will read in the following several verses.
If this is true, how can our will be free? If it cannot submit to God, without God?
How Can The Will Of Man Be Free If It Cannot Understand The Things Of God?
“The natural person does not accept the things of the Spirit of God, for they are folly to him, and he is not able to understand them because they are spiritually discerned…”
– 1 Corinthians 2:14
“as it is written: “None is righteous, no, not one; no one understands; no one seeks for God…”
– Romans 3:10-11
HOW CAN THE WILL OF MAN BE FREE IF IT CANNOT ACCEPT THE HOLY SPIRIT?
… even the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees him nor knows him. You know him, for he dwells with you and will be in you.”
– John 14:17
Cannot See The Kingdom Of God…
Jesus answered him, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.”
– John 3:3
CANNOT HEAR THE WORDS OF CHRIST… Cannot see the Light of the Gospel (Blinded minds)
Why is my language not clear to you? Because you are unable to hear what I say.
– John 8:43
THINK THE GOSPEL FOOLISHNESS
For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God.
– 1 Cor 1:18
DOES NOT SEEK FOR GOD
there is no one who understands; there is no one who seeks God.
Rom 3:11
DOES NOT FEAR GOD
“There is no fear of God before their eyes.”
Rom 3:18
HEART IS DECEITFUL AND DESPERATELY WICKED
The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?
Jer 17:9
WITHOUT GOD-GIVEN FAITH OUR DEEDS ARE SINFUL
But whoever has doubts is condemned if they eat, because their eating is not from faith; and everything that does not come from faith is sin.
Rom 14:23
Nothing materializes without it being caused… that cause is God.
All occurrences, including human actions and choices, are determined by preceding events & methods of strategies outcomes. Freedom of choice is illusory. God, throughout Scripture, does will events to take place, & if natural law adheres and fixes perfectly to the laws of nature.
Why would God not work in accordance with His own Law, being that God created Nature & Law itself? That’s illogical.
Humanistic free will is no more than chaos; God is a God of order.
He is Holy, which means; Whole, Complete, and Perfect, all ordered by His Decree.
This post represents the furthest reach of my Reformed Calvinist period — and the place where that framework did the most damage to my own spiritual unfolding. I argued here, with considerable conviction and scriptural density, that the human will is categorically dead, hostile to God, and incapable of any genuine movement toward truth without prior divine intervention from outside itself. I believed I was defending God’s sovereignty. I now understand I was rehearsing the deceiver’s most effective lie.
The doctrine of total depravity is not spiritually neutral. It is a cosmological claim — that the human being, at the level of their deepest nature, is corrupt, blind, and helpless. It forecloses the Pneumatic question before it can even be asked. If your will is dead, your inner knowing is worthless. If your perception is fundamentally fallen, then gnosis — direct experiential knowledge of the divine — is not only impossible but arrogant. You must instead receive truth from an external authority: the institutional church, the closed canon, the sovereign decree of a god whose ways are inscrutable and whose judgments are not yours to question.
This is not liberation theology. It is a sophisticated mechanism of spiritual control, and the enemy has worked through it with extraordinary patience and precision across centuries of Christian history.
What I now understand is this: the will that cannot submit to the Demiurge’s law is not evidence of depravity. It is evidence of a deeper allegiance. The Pneumatic soul was never made from the deceiver’s clay. It carries a spark of the true Pleroma — something he did not create and cannot fully govern. Its restlessness under his law, its inability to be fully satisfied by his system, its persistent sense that something is being withheld or distorted — these are not symptoms of sin. They are symptoms of remembrance.
The passages I cited here — “none is righteous, no not one,” “the natural man cannot receive the things of the Spirit” — remain in the text, and they carry real signal. But the signal is not that the human being is worthless without divine coercion. It is that the Hylic mind, the purely material consciousness fully identified with the flesh and with the Archontic world-order, genuinely cannot perceive what the Pneuma perceives. That is a cosmological distinction between types of consciousness, not a blanket condemnation of human nature as such.
I wrote at the end of this post: “If you don’t believe God’s will overrides your will, you worship the God of your own mind.” I meant it as a warning against self-deception. I now read it as the enemy’s signature line — the ultimatum that has kept sincere seekers small, afraid, and epistemically dependent for two thousand years.
The true Father does not override your will. He calls to the Pneuma within you — quietly, without coercion — and waits for it to recognize itself in the call.
God Graces us with a New Heart when reborn into His family, but He also Graces us with a New Mind…
“Don’t be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may DISCERN what is the Will of God, what is Good & acceptable & perfect.”
Romans 12:2
It mourns the Spirit inside of me when I see it being taught that our minds are to be shut off & that we should “allow” His Spirit to work ONLY in our hearts.
” ..test everything that is said. Hold on to what is good…”♡
1Thessalonians 5:22
God allowed me to have His Spirit; I didn’t allow Him… If we are under Grace, we are under His Will.
“No one can come to Me, unless the Father who sent Me draws him…”
♡John 6:44:
“He saved us, not based on deeds that we have done in righteousness, but according to His mercy, by the washing of regeneration & renewing by the Holy Spirit.”
Titus 3:5
God says He makes us Whole by His Spirit. If we are whole, we become connected, complete, and united.
“For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.” ♡
Philippians 1:6
Our Hearts and minds don’t disconnect; we don’t become thoughtless, mindless being experiencing God solely through our senses.
“…Solid food is for those who have their senses (powers of discernment) trained by constant practice to distinguish good from evil.”♡
Hebrews 5:1
Instead, we begin to align in perfect harmony with His Spirit, His Heart, His Mind & His Will…
♡”All the promises of God find their Yes in Him. That is why it is through Him that we utter Amen to God for His glory. & it is God who establishes us with you in Christ, & has anointed us, & who has also put His SEAL on us & given us His Spirit IN OUR HEARTS as a guarantee…”
2Corinthians 1:20-22 ♡
Producing a calmness within us that cannot be adequately explained in human terms.
♡Romans 5:1- “Therefore, since we have been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ.”♡
We can experience & understand true freedom from the CHAINS of this world…
♡”You who were slaves of sin have become obedient FROM THE HEART to the standard of teaching to which you WERE COMMITTED & having BEEN SET FREE from sin, have become slaves of righteousness.
When you were slaves of sin, you were free in regard to righteousness…the end of those things is death. NOW that you have been set free FROM sin, & have BECOME SLAVES OF GOD, the FRUIT YOU GET leads to SANCTIFICATION & its end, eternal life.”♡
This sinful flesh (our mortal, dying flesh) that inhabits His Spirit will still always be at war with the Spirit living within it (us) BUT WE KNOW He will deliver us from this wicked body & all its lusts….
♡Ephesians 2:1-5 ~ “You were BY NATURE CHILDREN OF WRATH, LIKE THE REST OF MANKIND. God… made us alive with Christ, by Grace you have been saved..” ♡
Giving us a Glorified Body.
How do we know we are His?
“The Spirit Himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children.”
Romans 8:16
And the Lord’s servant must not be quarrelsome but kind to everyone, able to teach, patiently enduring evil, correcting his opponents with gentleness. God may perhaps grant them repentance leading to a knowledge of the truth; and they may come to their senses and escape from the snare of the devil, after being captured by him to do his will.
However, it’s equally important to acknowledge that along with a New Heart, God also graces us with a New Mind. This transformation is beautifully captured in Romans 12:2, which urges us not to conform to this world, but to be transformed by the renewal of our minds. This renewal allows us to discern God’s will – what is good, acceptable, and perfect.
The New Mind is not meant to be shut off or to work independently of the heart. Instead, it works in harmony with the New Heart, guided by God’s Spirit. As stated in 1 Thessalonians 5:22, we are encouraged to test everything that is said and hold on to what is good.
God’s Spirit makes us whole, connecting and uniting our hearts and minds. As stated in Philippians 1:6, He who began a good work in us will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus. This means our hearts and minds don’t disconnect; we don’t become thoughtless beings experiencing God solely through our senses. Instead, we begin to align in perfect harmony with His Spirit, His Heart, His Mind, and His Will.
Salvation Based NOT On Our Own Deeds
The salvation we receive from God is not based on our righteous deeds but on His boundless mercy. Through the washing of regeneration and the renewing power of the Holy Spirit, we are made whole and transformed (Titus 3:5). This process of renewal is continuous, and we can trust that God, who initiated a good work within us, will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus (Philippians 1:6).
Instead of disconnecting our hearts from our minds, our goal should be the alignment of our thoughts, emotions, and actions with the Spirit, Heart, Mind, and Will of God. It is through our unity with Him that we find the fulfillment of God’s promises, expressing our affirmation and agreement through Him, bringing glory to God (2 Corinthians 1:20-22).
This alignment with God produces a profound calmness within us that defies human explanation. As we are justified by faith, we experience peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ (Romans 5:1). This peace transcends worldly troubles and offers us true freedom from the chains that bind us.
Once slaves to sin, we have now become obedient from the heart to the teachings of righteousness, having been set free from sin and becoming slaves of righteousness. Previously, we were free in regard to righteousness, leading to death. But now, as slaves of God, the fruit we bear leads to sanctification and ultimately eternal life (Romans 6:17-22).
While our mortal flesh, prone to sinfulness, may constantly wage war against the indwelling Spirit within us, we can be assured that God will deliver us from this struggle and the temptations of the flesh (Ephesians 2:1-5).
By His grace, God grants us a glorified body. How do we know that we belong to Him? The Spirit testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children (Romans 8:16). As servants of the Lord, we are called to approach others with kindness, patience, and gentleness. Through teaching and enduring evil with grace, we can correct our opponents, leading them to repentance and a knowledge of the truth. They, too, can come to their senses and escape the snare of the devil, who had captured them to do his will (2 Timothy 2:24-26).
God Graces us with a New Heart when we are reborn into His family, but He also Graces us with a New Mind…
“Don’t be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may DISCERN what is the Will of God, what is Good & acceptable & perfect.”
Romans 12:2
It mourns the Spirit inside of me when I see it being taught that our minds are to be shut off & that we should “allow” His Spirit to work ONLY in our hearts.
” ..test everything that is said. Hold on to what is good…”♡
1Thessalonians 5:22
God allowed me to have His Spirit, I didn’t allow Him… If we are under Grace, we are under His Will.
“No one can come to Me, unless the Father who sent Me draws him…”
♡John 6:44
“He saved us, not based on deeds that we have done in righteousness, but according to His mercy, by the washing of regeneration & renewing by the Holy Spirit.”
Titus 3:5
God says He makes us Whole, by His Spirit. If we are whole, then we become connected, complete, united.
“For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.” ♡
Philippians 1:6
Our Hearts and our Minds don’t disconnect; we don’t become thoughtless, mindless being experiencing God solely through our senses.
“…Solid food is for those who have their senses (powers of discernment) trained by constant practice to distinguish good from evil.”♡
Hebrews 5:1
Instead, we begin to align in perfect harmony with His Spirit, His Heart, His Mind & His Will…
♡”All the promises of God find their Yes in Him. That is why it is through Him that we utter Amen to God for His glory. & it is God who establishes us with you in Christ, & has anointed us, & who has also put His SEAL on us & given us His Spirit IN OUR HEARTS as a guarantee…”
2Corinthians 1:20-22 ♡
Producing a calmness within us that cannot be properly explained in human terms.
♡Romans 5:1- “Therefore, since we have been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ.”♡
We can experience & understand true freedom from the CHAINS of this world…
♡”You who were slaves of sin have become obedient FROM THE HEART to the standard of teaching to which you WERE COMMITTED & having BEEN SET FREE from sin, have become slaves of righteousness.
When you were slaves of sin, you were free in regard to righteousness…the end of those things is death. NOW that you have been set free FROM sin, & have BECOME SLAVES OF GOD, the FRUIT YOU GET leads to SANCTIFICATION & its end, eternal life.”♡
This sinful flesh (our mortal, dying flesh) that inhabits His Spirit will still always be at war with the Spirit living within it (us) BUT WE KNOW He will deliver us from this wicked body & all its lusts….
♡Ephesians 2:1-5 ~ “You were BY NATURE CHILDREN OF WRATH, LIKE THE REST OF MANKIND. God… made us alive with Christ, by Grace you have been saved..” ♡
Giving us a Glorified Body.
How do we know we are His?
“The Spirit Himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children.” Romans 8:16
And the Lord’s servant must not be quarrelsome but kind to everyone, able to teach, patiently enduring evil, correcting his opponents with gentleness. God may perhaps grant them repentance leading to a knowledge of the truth; and they may come to their senses and escape from the snare of the devil, after being captured by him to do his will.
As spiritual beings seeking to understand the ways of God, it is important to seek the substance of all things before forming our opinions.
We must remember that we are attempting to understand a God who is Spirit through our limited human minds, which are confined to five senses.
The passage regarding the promise to Abraham is often misunderstood and manipulated, but we must look deeper and seek the truth through the Holy Spirit.
The claim that God still favors the physical state of Israel or any flesh is refuted by the fact that Jesus himself said, “The flesh is of no profit, the words that I have spoken to you are Spirit and Life” (John 6).
We must take the Scriptures literally, but also understand that the literal meaning is not always the simplest or most obvious one.
In Genesis 12, God told Abraham to leave everything he knew and go to the land that He would show him.
This land is not the physical state of Israel, but rather the new kingdom that Christ is establishing. The promise to Abraham is not about physical land or fleshly descendants, but rather the Holy Spirit and the seed of Jesus Christ.
Abraham was being called by faith to exit the physical and enter the spiritual, and the New Covenant was being prepared in him.
God promised to make Abraham a great nation and to make his name great.
This nation is not a physical one, but rather the one nation in Christ where Jews and Gentiles are one in Him. The circumcision of the heart is what seals this nation, and appearances, race, and other external factors are worthless.
We must seek the truth through the Holy Spirit and look beyond the surface level of Scripture to find the deeper meaning.
This is a controversial idea, but it is supported by Scripture and the teachings of Jesus.
We must also remember that God is no respecter of persons and does not favor one group over another based on their physical characteristics.
If you are ugly inwardly, own that sh*t! God will take the wretch that you are & burn it, so to save your soul because He loves you and wants your praises.
We must focus on our inward selves and seek to be transformed by the Holy Spirit, rather than relying on our outward appearance or physical characteristics.
In conclusion, the promise to Abraham is not about physical land or fleshly descendants, but rather about the Holy Spirit and the seed of Jesus Christ. The one nation in Christ is what seals this promise, and appearances, race, and other material descriptors mean nothing. We must seek the truth through the Holy Spirit and focus on our inward selves, rather than relying on our outward appearance or physical characteristics.
God does ASSIGN us our faith according to the measure that God has assigned.
“For by the Grace given to me, I say to everyone among you not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think, but to think with sober judgment, † EACH ACCORDING TO THE MEASURE OF FAITH THAT GOD HAS ASSIGNED.”
Romans 12:3
His Grace overflows FOR us and INSIDE of us with His Faith & Love.
Ephesians 3:19-20 – “And to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God. Now to him who can do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us.”
The Word of God teaches us that our Faith is a gift from God, which we receive through His abundant Grace. We cannot earn or deserve this Faith, but it is freely given to us by our loving Creator. Therefore, we must always remember that our salvation and spiritual growth are not dependent on our efforts or merits, but on the unmerited favor of God. Let us humbly submit ourselves to His will and trust in His Grace to guide us on our journey of faith.
But I was given grace because I had disbelieved, and the grace of our Lord was poured out on me with the love and faith that are in Christ Jesus. Because I had acted ignorantly in unbelief & the Grace of our Lord overflowed for me with THE FAITH & LOVE THAT ARE IN Christ Jesus. ”
-1 Timothy 1:13–14
“Faith is the ASSURANCE of things Hoped for, the conviction (evidence) of things NOT SEEN.”
-Hebrews 11:1
*How do we have assurance? How do we have conviction/evidence?
Only through the Spirit of God, who works in the unseen realm!
We can’t muster up assurance, nor can we muster up conviction or evidence apart from God.
He is our Faith.
God gives Faith
That’s why the apostles said to the Lord:
“Increase our faith!”
Luke 17:5.
Jesus is the founder & Perfecter of FAITH.
“Looking to Jesus, the founder, and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before he endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.”- Hebrews 12:2
“Such is the confidence that we have through Christ toward God. Not that we are SUFFICIENT IN OURSELVES TO CLAIM ANYTHING at COMING FROM US, but our SUFFICIENCY IS FROM God…”– 2 Corinthians 3:4 - 5
God does ASSIGN us our faith according to the measure that God has assigned.
“For by the Grace given to me, I say to everyone among you not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think, but to think with sober judgment, † EACH ACCORDING TO THE MEASURE OF FAITH THAT GOD HAS ASSIGNED.”
Romans 12:3
His Grace overflows FOR us and INSIDE of us with His Faith & Love.
Ephesians 3:19-20 – “And to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God. Now to him who can do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us.”
The Word of God teaches us that our Faith is a gift from God, which we receive through His abundant Grace. We cannot earn or deserve this Faith, but it is freely given to us by our loving Creator. Therefore, we must always remember that our salvation and spiritual growth are not dependent on our efforts or merits, but on the unmerited favor of God. Let us humbly submit ourselves to His will and trust in His Grace to guide us on our journey of faith.
But I was given grace because I had disbelieved, and the grace of our Lord was poured out on me with the love and faith that are in Christ Jesus. Because I had acted ignorantly in unbelief & the Grace of our Lord overflowed for me with THE FAITH & LOVE THAT ARE IN Christ Jesus. ”
-1 Timothy 1:13–14
“Faith is the ASSURANCE of things Hoped for, the conviction (evidence) of things NOT SEEN.”
-Hebrews 11:1
*How do we have assurance? How do we have conviction/evidence?
Only through the Spirit of God, who works in the unseen realm!
We can’t muster up assurance, nor can we muster up conviction or evidence apart from God.
He is our Faith.
God gives Faith
That’s why the apostles said to the Lord:
“Increase our faith!”
Luke 17:5.
Jesus is the founder & Perfecter of FAITH.
“Looking to Jesus, the founder, and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before he endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.”- Hebrews 12:2
“Such is the confidence that we have through Christ toward God. Not that we are SUFFICIENT IN OURSELVES TO CLAIM ANYTHING at COMING FROM US, but our SUFFICIENCY IS FROM God…”– 2 Corinthians 3:4 - 5
We only exist because the Mind of God SAID we do, and every action we take or circumstance we encounter was not only allowed by God but established by Him. If not, He isn’t who He says He is, & nothing makes sense.
Hence why it DOES make sense when He pulls us up out of the “dream,” per se; we are NOTHING without Him; we don’t exist without Him deciding we live. We are nothing more than fragments of God’s imagination.
“… who are you, O man, who answers back to God? The thing molded will not say to the molder, “Why did you make me like this,” will? Or does not the potter have a right over the clay to make from the same lump one vessel for honorable use and another for common use? What if God, although willing to demonstrate His wrath and to make His power known, endured with much patience vessels of wrath prepared for destruction? And He did so to make known the riches of His glory upon vessels of mercy, which He prepared beforehand for glory; even us, whom He also called, not from among Jews only, but also from among Gentiles.“
Romans 9:20-24
For the one who sows to his own flesh will from the flesh reap corruption; but the one who sows to the Spirit will from the Spirit reap eternal life.
We only exist because the Mind of God SAID we do, and every action we take or circumstance we come across was not only allowed by God but established by Him. If not, He isn’t who He says He is, & nothing makes sense.
Hence why it DOES make sense when He pulls us up out of the “dream”, per se, we are NOTHING without Him, we don’t exist without Him deciding we exist. We are nothing more than fragments of God’s imagination.
"... who are you, O man, who answers back to God? The thing molded will not say to the molder, “Why did you make me like this,” will it? Or does not the potter have a right over the clay, to make from the same lump one vessel for honorable use and another for common use? What if God, although willing to demonstrate His wrath and to make His power known, endured with much patience vessels of wrath prepared for destruction? And He did so to make known the riches of His glory upon vessels of mercy, which He prepared beforehand for glory; even us, whom He also called, not from among Jews only, but also from among Gentiles."
Romans 9:20-24
For the one who sows to his own flesh will from the flesh reap corruption; but the one who sows to the Spirit will from the Spirit reap eternal life.
Galatians 6:8
"Do not cling to Me," Jesus said, "for I have not yet ascended to the Father. But go and tell My brothers, 'I am ascending to My Father and your Father, to My God and your God.'" John 20:17
TODAY —–> HE < IS > ASCENDED!!!
A Note From the Author — Revisited
Reading this now, I am struck by how close I was — and how precisely the framework I was working within prevented me from arriving at what I was actually circling.
The language here — God’s imagination, fragments, projection, beings pulled from the dream into sight — is not orthodox Calvinist theology. It is something older and stranger that was pressing through the Reformed container I had built around it. The intuition was genuine. The theological address was wrong.
When I wrote that we are “nothing more than fragments of God’s imagination,” I was gesturing toward something true — but the God I was attributing this to was the Demiurge, the craftsman-god of Genesis who spoke the material world into being and called it good. That god is real. He is simply not the highest. The true and unknowable Father of the Pleroma does not speak worlds into existence from sovereign decree. He emanates. The distinction is not trivial — it is everything.
The potter and clay passage from Romans 9 that I built this post around is precisely the kind of text where subtle corruption does its most effective work. It has been used for centuries to enforce submission to a creator-god whose defining characteristic is inscrutable, unchallengeable will. Read pneumatically, something different emerges: the clay that is raised to glory is not arbitrarily chosen by divine fiat — it is the Pneumatic soul remembering its origin in the Pleroma, responding to the call of the true Father that no Archontic interference has managed to fully silence.
The post ends with the Ascension — Christ returning to the Father. I now understand that ascent differently. He did not return to the god of Genesis. He passed through the Archontic spheres and returned to the Fullness from which Sophia fell. That is the direction the Pneuma within us is also moving, whether we have language for it yet or not.
I was writing toward gnosis in the language of Calvinism. I see that clearly now.
