{OLD Journal Entries from when I was a “Shamanic” pagan practitioner. A tiny fragment of my perception during a supposed: Spiritual “Awakening” before Lucifer was forced to hand me over to my Creator:
I FULL-HEARTEDLY BELIEVED IN THE DIVINE POWER OF THE HUMAN WILL. }
Today I KNOW the error and twisted perception flipping God’s word upside down: As above, so below.
WARNING: My journal entries are the old me: I reject and have killed the one writing these things: It’s significant to know your enemy, even when you were/are that enemy.
My Recent Thoughts In The Midst Of Awakening: Seeking Full Transcendence Past this Realm
Spiritual awakenings always get precipitated by experiences of wounding, abuse, and trauma, which is to say, allowing oneself to not only fully experience suffering, but cultivate suffering to work for you as a conduit, masochism is a strength; a way of being; and a discipline.
Meaning, Being severly damaged or wounded most initiates the primal “Calling” and forces the fast progression of the “Shamanic Archetype” to begin emerging and embed itself in the Unconscious with violence.
A genuine spiritual awakening can only be started in the complete freedom of the human will seeking out inflicting upon itself pain and fear: a sure way to kick start some hard-core spiritual development and growth.
Many substances will help on this journey if only used ritualistically and medicinally, but only attainment can come by your powerful will: be strengthened by the power of your Mind, and you can be fulfilled; I am not fulfilled yet, but I am experiencing higher- and higher-level downloads of ancient wisdom.
The Ancient ones have initiated me, this much I am sure, and I am manifesting my compliance to them so that I can continue my Ascension Process, or else complete breakdown and chaos will consume me.
Spiritual Awakening is often co-joined of both healthy and pathological factors.
This means we must foster ONLY the healthy aspects of our behaviors and beliefs that aid in the progression of jumping dimensions, as well as forcing and administering the annihilation of other characteristics, forcing them to be annihilated by a Shiva-type energy.
The idea is to nourish the healthy facets of the approach so that they keep becoming more potent while allowing the pathological factors to naturally fall away as they merge into the totality of the newly materializing psyche.
To quote the great Hindu saint:
Ramakrishna, “How to get rid of the lower self? The blossom vanishes of itself as the fruit grows, so will your lower self-vanish as the divine grows in you.”
Shamanism is the root from which humanity’s various Spiritual disciplines have been disseminated; the earliest origins of modern psychotherapy known to history lie in archaic Shamanism.
